I haven’t had the urge to blog lately. I want to say it is due to lack of happenings. However, that’s not true. There is just as much occurring now as ever. Therefore, I think the change may be in me. Those big emotions are not stirred up on an almost daily basis. I may be settling into my normal.
Oh, insurance does not want to cover a medical necessity? I’m used to that. What’s that? The medicaid waiver process is a giant snafu? I kind of expected it. Are those people judging us as we go about our routine? Shrugged off. Another diagnosis? I saw it coming.
Don’t mistake me. Like anyone, some days are better than others for me. I do struggle from time to time. I continue to feel disconnected from the “regular” parenting world. But, those powerful consuming emotions are not an every day thing anymore. Maybe, more of a once or twice a week kind of thing.
The dust is finally settling after our world was rocked by Charlie’s premature arrival.
On a side note: Today was the first day that I looked at Charlie and saw a little girl instead of a baby. I don’t care what people say. This time did not fly by. It felt like the longest two years of my life.
I happily tossed out the bottles (she takes her formula through a sippy cup now). I was thrilled to take the rail off of her crib. I look forward to the (very far off) day without diapers.
Bye bye baby and hello little girl!