Tomorrow, my friend is having her baby shower. I haven’t attended a baby shower since the one I didn’t have. Tonight, I struggled with the decision over whether to go or not to go.
Honestly, I want to duck out. The reason being is that tomorrow is also the two year anniversary that I was hospitalized with severe preeclampsia. Two years ago tonight, I was filling a huge jug in my fridge with urine. It was the night before everything changed.
I don’t want to hurt my friend’s feelings. I know she would understand if I didn’t go (she was very supportive when Charlie was in the NICU).
However, I don’t want my friend to suffer because I have. It’s been two years, I can’t avoid important events in people’s lives forever.
I can at least try to go. Who knows? Maybe there won’t be an issue and I’ll have a fantastic time.
My husband is busy so I have to take Charlie with me. Secretly, I hope she is enough of a distraction to ward off the sadness and somber thoughts.
If not, there are other options. I can leave early if need be. I can text for back up. There are options.
I find it funny that Charlie usually clings to me in most situations. Tomorrow, I may very well need her instead.
Ready or not, here we go… Let’s Do This!