Let’s Do This!

Tomorrow, my friend is having her baby shower. I haven’t attended a baby shower since the one I didn’t have. Tonight, I struggled with the decision over whether to go or not to go.

Honestly, I want to duck out. The reason being is that tomorrow is also the two year anniversary that I was hospitalized with severe preeclampsia. Two years ago tonight, I was filling a huge jug in my fridge with urine. It was the night before everything changed.

I don’t want to hurt my friend’s feelings. I know she would understand if I didn’t go (she was very supportive when Charlie was in the NICU).

However, I don’t want my friend to suffer because I have. It’s been two years, I can’t avoid important events in people’s lives forever.

I can at least try to go. Who knows? Maybe there won’t be an issue and I’ll have a fantastic time.

My husband is busy so I have to take Charlie with me. Secretly, I hope she is enough of a distraction to ward off the sadness and somber thoughts.

If not, there are other options. I can leave early if need be. I can text for back up. There are options.

I find it funny that Charlie usually clings to me in most situations. Tomorrow, I may very well need her instead.

Ready or not, here we go…  Let’s Do This!

This picture is way off topic. But, I love the expression. It is from a visit to a children's museum yesterday.

This picture is way off topic. But, I love the expression. It is from a visit to a children’s museum yesterday.

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About Rebecca Wood

In May 2012, my pregnancy ended three and a half months early due to severe early onset preeclampsia. This is my collection of thoughts and media. It is an attempt to document and discuss our experience of navigating the post NICU world. View all posts by Rebecca Wood

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