Anxious Anticipation

As most know, Charlie has been trying to walk for the last couple of months. She is tempted to try each time she sees another toddler walking. Her most recent unsuccessful attempt occurred after she watched the birthday boy take some of his first steps on Saturday. After her fall, I picked her up and comforted her as she cried out of frustration.

As a parent, it is a tough thing to repeatedly watch. That is why I was delighted to learn today that her Ankle Foot Orthotics (AFO) have arrived. She will receive her AFOs next week.

While I am excited for Charlie, I am also afraid to hope. What if the AFOs are not as helpful as hoped? What if the issues holding her back are more extensive than the muscle tone in her feet and ankles? Quite honestly, I’m a little anxious.

So far, Charlie’s inability to walk has been the most difficult milestone to watch her struggle with. Socially, there is a large divide between the toddlers that can walk and the babies who can’t. Charlie is aware that she should be a walking toddler.

I hope next week’s AFO fitting will be the first step in helping Charlie become that walking toddler. I am apprehensive that it may not be. If it isn’t, I don’t know how I can remain positive for her when I will feel so discouraged.

As a physical therapy activity, Charlie climbs the stairs frequently. This was one of the first times that she did it.


About Rebecca Wood

In May 2012, my pregnancy ended three and a half months early due to severe early onset preeclampsia. This is my collection of thoughts and media. It is an attempt to document and discuss our experience of navigating the post NICU world. View all posts by Rebecca Wood

3 responses to “Anxious Anticipation

  • jgroeber

    Love this post! And for the record, our two month preemie twins walked at about 15 months and exactly 18 months (to the day!) Now I’ve forgotten my college math but if you adjust for months premature (which I will do until mine have moved out of the house) then your sweet pea is Sir Edmund Hillary. The AFOs seemed to help mine (along with a bizarre therapeutic body armor called Theratogs… you can check my blog for a pic) but it really was just time and practice. Good luck and breathe deeply!


  • A Miracle In the Works

    I know how you feel. All of Roo’s friends can walk and run and she still sits there and crawls watching them run in circles around her. It hurts my heart but I know when she’s able and ready she will too. Our PT thinks it will happen by Christmas for us. I’m hopeful but not holding my breath in fear that she won’t and I’ll be disappointed.

    Keep up the good work, mama! She looks great crawling up those stairs!


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