We returned home late tonight after my husband’s work party. It went really well. There were all the usual questions, “Is she OK?” and the anecdotes about other preemies that are “fine”.
Tonight, the questions and comments did not bother me. I suppose I was prepared to hear them and determined to not let it upset me. Moreover, it helped that the comments came from people who seemed to have genuine concern and empathy. Possibly, I may be better at my new role. Just maybe, time really does heal.
The usual uneasiness was not really there.
Whatever the change in the equation tonight, I feel like I got a piece of me back. I admit, I was nervous when we first arrived. However, socializing was not taxing for the first time in a very long time. It was a pleasant break from the daily appointment grind.
Tomorrow, it is back to the usual. Charlie has two appointments on her schedule.